Deja Vu is a Bitch.

I have to get this off my fucking chest because it eats me alive every fucking day and I’m fucking tired of it.  Our relationship is progressing the same exact way as last time so it’s hard not to feel fucking deja vu you know?  It’s been almost 3 amazing months together but I still…

Cowards Come in All Shapes & Sizes.

“…This isn’t something I’m going to work on. I am this way because its what works for me and to “work on it” is basically a nice way to suggest change. I’m not going to change who or how I am. I’ve already done that once in my life and it was a complete waste….

Progress.

When I left my ex boyfriend in August I was fucking 87 pounds. I was sick, I looked unhealthy and I was in the worst shape of my life. I used to be scared to eat, I’d have to walk on egg shells, I’d have to beg for the bare minimum, and I couldn’t even…

Friendship.

I don’t want to be your fucking friend. I dont want to feel the obligation that I have to let you back in my life. Nothing good ever came from our relationship except regret, emotional abuse and the gray hairs I couldn’t afford to have. I’m finally in a place mentally where I can drive…

Safe.

I got home from a long day at work to see dishes in the sink, a few cans on the counter and laundry piling up. I remember looking for pants and stopped myself and thought: I don’t fucking want to. And for a brief moment I felt so much peace. I no longer come home…