Tag: narcissist

11/10/2021.

I wanted to cut myself today. Thinking of you sliding your fingers inside me, violating my body gives me nightmares. No one imagines getting sexually assaulted on the first date. It’s not something I openly talk about you know? It’s not something I’m proud of. The shame follows me in every relationship I’ve been in,…

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Deja Vu is a Bitch.

I have to get this off my fucking chest because it eats me alive every fucking day and I’m fucking tired of it.  Our relationship is progressing the same exact way as last time so it’s hard not to feel fucking deja vu you know?  It’s been almost 3 amazing months together but I still…

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Cowards Come in All Shapes & Sizes.

“…This isn’t something I’m going to work on. I am this way because its what works for me and to “work on it” is basically a nice way to suggest change. I’m not going to change who or how I am. I’ve already done that once in my life and it was a complete waste….

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Progress.

When I left my ex boyfriend in August I was fucking 87 pounds. I was sick, I looked unhealthy and I was in the worst shape of my life. I used to be scared to eat, I’d have to walk on egg shells, I’d have to beg for the bare minimum, and I couldn’t even…

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