Friendship.

I don’t want to be your fucking friend. I dont want to feel the obligation that I have to let you back in my life. Nothing good ever came from our relationship except regret, emotional abuse and the gray hairs I couldn’t afford to have. I’m finally in a place mentally where I can drive…

The Reason.

You especially don’t give a shit about me What’s more important? Partying with your friends or me? This, I hate to say it, is on you. I’ve done nothing but love you and you couldn’t even try. YOU are the reason I drink.  YOU are the reason I want  nothing more than to die every …

Safe.

I got home from a long day at work to see dishes in the sink, a few cans on the counter and laundry piling up. I remember looking for pants and stopped myself and thought: I don’t fucking want to. And for a brief moment I felt so much peace. I no longer come home…

Insomnia Thoughts withRelationships

This is one piece of advice I needed to hear. In my previous relationship it was pulling teeth to get any quality time with him. If I asked to spend time with him he’ll say “I saw you all week. You’re being controlling whenever I want to see my friends.” He would go above and…

Fuck Making My Bed.

I’ll stand over my bed my mind Like a fucking idiot pacing the side worrying about how I should make it before I leave for work. I stand there with tears filling my eyes, my hands shaking like an addict about how I need to please you before you find out I’m being a slob…