Melancholy.

I woke up in love but also wanting to die. Complete and utter disregard for my own life. My life is a melancholy drama and I’m tired. This is the dichotomy of life we must ride. I want to live? But death would be okay too.

11/10/2021.

I wanted to cut myself today. Thinking of you sliding your fingers inside me, violating my body gives me nightmares. No one imagines getting sexually assaulted on the first date. It’s not something I openly talk about you know? It’s not something I’m proud of. The shame follows me in every relationship I’ve been in,…

Just M.

I don’t know how to describe what it’s like to kiss him. He kisses me so soft, so gentle like he wants to cherish every single second of me. He’ll pause and look right in my eyes like I’m the most beautiful person he’s ever seen. He’ll wrap his arms around me and caress my…

Dear stranger.

Sometimes, I lay in bed twirling my hair from the thoughts of you slipping inside my mind. The way you wrap yourself around me from behind like a cocoon, the way you stare at me when the sun hits my eyes just right exposing my eye colors like a kaleidoscope, the way your mustache tickles…