I wanted to cut myself today. Thinking of you sliding your fingers inside me, violating my body gives me nightmares. No one imagines getting sexually assaulted on the first date. It’s not something I openly talk about you know? It’s not something I’m proud of. The shame follows me in every relationship I’ve been in,…
Tag: emotional abuse
My Dirty Truth. 6-14-2021
I want to curl myself into the closet and lay there until the sun comes out. But I don’t know when the suns coming out. It’s been raining for weeks. I’m tired of living. I’m tired of me. I’m tired of being. No one understands how exhausting it is to fight with your brain 24/7…
Scraps.
I was so desperate for love and acceptance I was happy for any scraps you would toss my way. I would scarf them down my throat & beg for more. I was just happy someone noticed me enough to pity me. & that’s just fucking pathetic.
Hyper-Independence Isn’t Something to be Fucking Proud of.
“It’s better if I do it myself.” “It’s fine; I’d rather do it alone.” “I don’t need your help.” “I can do this with or without you.” I realized this morning that being too independent comes with its own term called, “hyper-independence” and trust me it’s not the greatest trait to have. It’s toxic as…
The Dirty Truth 
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