Benign.

Sometimes I’ll trick myself into thinking I’m doing better. Sometimes I’ll be naive to believe I’m normal and thriving but I forget I’m merely in remission. The grief will cross its legs and sit benign inside my veins, coiling itself softly around my organs. It’ll sleep in the corners of my mind, waking up when…

Life Lessons.

Love is not all you need: 1. You need mutual respect  2. You need support  3. You need trust  4. You need boundaries  5. You need your partner to be there when it matters 6. You need space to grow & the acceptance when you do  7. You need a partner to show their love…

Memorial Day.

You didn’t want me to go out to my family’s BBQ. I had to beg and promise that it would only be a few hours. That I wouldn’t take long.That I would keep my mouth shut and hide the   bruises on my neck. Make up became my new best friend. I even offered to…

Grief.

The grief rips me apart and swallows  me whole. In one swift gulp it consumes  me and I’m gone. I’m fucking gone.  Sometimes when no one is  around I will reach into my  drawer and pull out your  pillowcase and I will cross my  legs on the bed and just hold  you in my arms…