It’s hard to be in a honest healthy relationship when your brain unravels itself sporadically without warning. And you struggle to learn how to date in a healthy way when you’ve never had a healthy partner. I’m really trying here. I’m truly trying to be a fucking person. But all I do is live as…

Unbearable At Best.

On the shallow surface, I look fine. Fatigued, yes but I seem to be functioning quite well. Happy even, if placed in the right environment. I smile here and there.  Sometimes a laugh will  escape my mouth. On the outside I look like a normal, healthy individual.  But once you unwrap the layers, and dig into the depths of me, I’m no longer…

Hyper-Independence Isn’t Something to be Fucking Proud of.

“It’s better if I do it myself.”  “It’s fine; I’d rather do it alone.” “I don’t need your help.” “I can do this with or without you.” I realized this morning that being too independent comes with its own term called, “hyper-independence” and trust me it’s not the greatest trait to have. It’s toxic as…

Anxiety is a bitch.

My anxiety has been sky high all day to the point I was vomiting on my way to work. It’s more than “being nervous” or feeling a little worried” It’s waking up crying every morning overthinking every worst case scenario in your head and your brain convincing you that no one loves you. It’s having…

Mental illness.

Dear Diary, I wake up wanting to die everyday. Right now I’m deep in my head and I’m in a really dark place. I’m spiraling into a dark hole into my self and everyday I wish I was dead because I feel I have no value as a human being lmao. Everyday I struggle to…