My Dirty Truth. 6-14-2021

I want to curl myself into the closet and lay there until the sun comes out. But I don’t know when the suns coming out. It’s been raining for weeks. I’m tired of living. I’m tired of me. I’m tired of being. No one understands how exhausting it is to fight with your brain 24/7…

Dark.

Will you love me on my darkest days when I can’t see what’s in front of me? Or will you only love me when I’m blinded by the sun?

Popular.

Well liked. Popular. Pretty. It sounds nice on paper. It sounds lovely right? You have a lot of friends, everyone wants to hang out with you, fighting for a spot in your inner circle. But it gives you a migraine for weeks. When you’re trying to handle the overwhelming amount of notifications from every single…

Thirsty.

Once I had a taste of intimacy, the feeling of curious hands spider walking my skin with soft fingers I swallowed it whole. I shoved it down my throat. I didn’t realize how thirsty I was until I felt a molecule taste on my tongue. I was hooked. Into a man that didn’t deserve me…

Effort.

If you stopped being the first person to reach out, what would happen? If you stopped calling and texting or setting up dates what would happen? If you were to stop fighting for them for a moment what would happen? Simple: if you were to stop making an effort what would happen? If you stopped…