11/10/2021.

I wanted to cut myself today. Thinking of you sliding your fingers inside me, violating my body gives me nightmares. No one imagines getting sexually assaulted on the first date. It’s not something I openly talk about you know? It’s not something I’m proud of. The shame follows me in every relationship I’ve been in,…

10.2.2021

Love is unconditional and forgiving. Love is patient. Your whole body can feel it; and thats okay. Falling in love fast isn’t a bad thing. Why should it be? Love can be serious; but also kind. Love is not a commitment except for itself. My love is unconditional but my self respect isn’t. My standards…

It’s hard to be in a honest healthy relationship when your brain unravels itself sporadically without warning. And you struggle to learn how to date in a healthy way when you’ve never had a healthy partner. I’m really trying here. I’m truly trying to be a fucking person. But all I do is live as…

It’s really hard to find good people when the worse ones are just as genuine looking and compassionate in the beginning

Too Much.

I get told I’m “too much” more times than I can count. I’m too sensitiveI’m too loudI’m too emotionalI’m too talkativeI’m too sassyI’m too lovingI’m too loyal I’m too me. I’m too much for most people and that’s okay. That’s their problem. I always want everything in my life to be bigger, better and more…